Oh how I wish I were sitting at the bakery this morning. I miss Merridee’s, and the smell of cinnamon rolls, and the people behind the counter who know my name. This is the third week in a row that I’m writing from McDonald’s in Hillsboro, MO. The smell of Egg McMuffins and Hash-Pucks is not nearly as inviting. We should get are first results from the extensive mold testing that was done in our house later on this week. Hopefully that will provide us with some insight into the severity of the mold in our house and give us some idea of when we might be able to go home.
The kids are having a great time at the farm and being able to stay here for these few weeks is a blessing, but it’s still a strain. We’ve put our lives on indefinite hold. All of our plans for this summer have been thwarted. We know that God is good and He knows the future and there’s a reason He didn’t stop this from happening. We know that this will ultimately work out for our best and God’s best and our family’s best. Nevertheless, we are a little depressed about the whole thing. It’s all quite unsettling, especially the waiting for results we have no control over.
Last night before bed Jennifer did a timeline of what our lives have been like since the fall of 2005. There’s been joy, hope, sorrow, suffering, birth, death, peace, and pain, and a move to Africa and back. Through it all we’ve only been permitted to see just a few feet in front of us on the path. God completely shut the blinds to the distant view. It’s been hard but good. And I know this time away from our home will prove to be the same. I just don’t get it right now. We seemed to be in such a good groove at home. I seem to so easily forget that this journey with Jesus is a path through the wilderness and a good groove isn’t always best. Jennifer and I pray for God to take our family on an adventure. We ask him to not let us get stuck in “normal”. We have to believe this is part of the answer.
Hope your week is an adventure too –
Peace and rest,
Jeromy
I just read a quote that pretty much sums up so many of the unanswered and unanswerable dilemmas….”Life has no guarantees, but GOD does” I heard your interview on K-Love and appreciated what you both had to say so very much. I was diagnosed with MS 16 years ago, mine is relapsing/remitting, so I am doing pretty darn good most of the time. But I still deeply resonated with all the ups and downs and mysteries of this condition. In fact one of the symptoms that you described – shingles type pain – comes on every now and again and now I know it is probably just part of the deal. I keep working on getting and staying healthier so the “internal soldiers” can do a better job fending off an attack. Sounds a lot like spiritual warfare, huh?!? And in many ways it is, because I will be doing fine and then all of a sudden a flare-up will hit me on a blind side when I am not expecting it. So onward and upward. GOD bless you guys!
PS “Undone” is an amazing song–true to the core!
wow, this is really great.
God moved us 800 miles from home and we are in the wilderness right now. but, He’s provided everything we have needed. yet, it is hard not to find ourselves depressed and in a funk. we are praying God’s will and timing…kinda hard sometimes for a control freak
thank you for sharing your lives with us. i love that you spent some time in africa, can’t wait to go there one day! we love the song “undone”.
hang in there guys, God is always Good!!!!
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brooke lynn
this is really good.
we are going through our own wilderness. God has been right there through it all providing for us yet it’s hard not to get depressed or in a funk. We are praying for HIS will to be done, in HIS timing. not too easy for a control freak!
thanks so much for sharing. love the song “undone”.
i’m amazed by your move to africa and back, can’t wait to visit one day myself.
hang in there guys,
God is always good.
love.
Hi Jeromy,
I read your morning meditation, and I think of the steps Nancy and I are asked to follow. Then I open my K-Love scripture of the day……Jeremiah 33:3……Now God is talking loud, and very clear. This has been often lately:) It takes the questions I have clearly out of the way! I love my King!! May the answers you cannot yet see around the corner be as sure as the ones already placed in your heart by God! Blessings to you, and the Family.